woo i need a new chocolate box its too full :) need to re-organize my chocolate box i think. separate them into cards, letters, fuzzies and stuff.
the past few days have been a whirlwind of events. so many things happening hardly have time to catch up with myself. starting from saturday - played for uncle lionel's wedding, then went out with friends, arcaded a while then went to watch soccer. first time watching a soccer match. quite an experience. stayover. home. 4m outing.
watching soccer was really quite an experience. the sun was scorching setting sun shining directly at us cos we were sitting at the east gallery. but not bad la the atmosphere was quite nice. the history of the national stadium was uber boring. hm i wonder if this kind of externally-focused activities drains an introvert like me. if introverts draw their energy from within, it only makes sense if energy is expended in extroversion right? lolz this borders on supernaturality. oh when i was researching on ki stuff the psychology section was just nearby. and amazingly, they have books that teach you about auras and third sights (and other clairvoyant and psychic stuffs) in the research section for psychology in the national library!
stayover was fun. at least the part that i was conscious (uh which is in the morning). lolz after bathing, i lay on the sofa and around 20 minutes into the first movie i ko-ed. felt so drained after the national stadium. lolz it's like i go other ppl's house just to sleep. but then :) got memory pillow, blanket and the super nice sofa plus aircon and fully body extension = sleep.
bah. relaxing mundane matters. back to inner struggles, on top of ki shit essay, as i mentioned to a friend ytd. friendships are... complicated matters. building a friendship itself is a laborious process. gotta balance both a level of sharing and a level of communication and shared memories. then maintaining that friendship is a whole different ball game. gotta deal with issues about familiarity breeding contempt, resentment, lapsing. that old adage abt friendship being like wine in that it gets better as it grows older is a mere oversimplification. these old cliches and adages always make things look simple. then the most frustrating thing is the quality of spontaneity, which breaks down in the face of instropection. bah.
comparing myself a few years ago, think i've lost a lot of energy and zeal. lacking the passion i used to have for the ppl around me. maybe i'm being too image conscious (of being labelled as emotional), maybe i'm too flooded with the drudgeries of jc life, maybe i've become too apathetic... maybe this ain't even a bad thing. but i miss doing these things. for all the effort i put in, it sure was tiring, but it was also rewarding. making ppl smile :)
oh well. life is hard. but i will survive. then again, i remember smth from 28 days later... it's not all about survival is it?
Name: Foo Guo Zhong Melvyn
Age: 19+
Affiliations: MSHS (Pri), Rosyth, RI, RJC, SFX (LoG)
Bday: 14th Nov
Email: mel_protoss@hotmail.com
woo i need a new chocolate box its too full :) need to re-organize my chocolate box i think. separate them into cards, letters, fuzzies and stuff.
the past few days have been a whirlwind of events. so many things happening hardly have time to catch up with myself. starting from saturday - played for uncle lionel's wedding, then went out with friends, arcaded a while then went to watch soccer. first time watching a soccer match. quite an experience. stayover. home. 4m outing.
watching soccer was really quite an experience. the sun was scorching setting sun shining directly at us cos we were sitting at the east gallery. but not bad la the atmosphere was quite nice. the history of the national stadium was uber boring. hm i wonder if this kind of externally-focused activities drains an introvert like me. if introverts draw their energy from within, it only makes sense if energy is expended in extroversion right? lolz this borders on supernaturality. oh when i was researching on ki stuff the psychology section was just nearby. and amazingly, they have books that teach you about auras and third sights (and other clairvoyant and psychic stuffs) in the research section for psychology in the national library!
stayover was fun. at least the part that i was conscious (uh which is in the morning). lolz after bathing, i lay on the sofa and around 20 minutes into the first movie i ko-ed. felt so drained after the national stadium. lolz it's like i go other ppl's house just to sleep. but then :) got memory pillow, blanket and the super nice sofa plus aircon and fully body extension = sleep.
bah. relaxing mundane matters. back to inner struggles, on top of ki shit essay, as i mentioned to a friend ytd. friendships are... complicated matters. building a friendship itself is a laborious process. gotta balance both a level of sharing and a level of communication and shared memories. then maintaining that friendship is a whole different ball game. gotta deal with issues about familiarity breeding contempt, resentment, lapsing. that old adage abt friendship being like wine in that it gets better as it grows older is a mere oversimplification. these old cliches and adages always make things look simple. then the most frustrating thing is the quality of spontaneity, which breaks down in the face of instropection. bah.
comparing myself a few years ago, think i've lost a lot of energy and zeal. lacking the passion i used to have for the ppl around me. maybe i'm being too image conscious (of being labelled as emotional), maybe i'm too flooded with the drudgeries of jc life, maybe i've become too apathetic... maybe this ain't even a bad thing. but i miss doing these things. for all the effort i put in, it sure was tiring, but it was also rewarding. making ppl smile :)
oh well. life is hard. but i will survive. then again, i remember smth from 28 days later... it's not all about survival is it?